Its been 6 months. It was never supposed to be that long. It feels both slow and fast. Slow: i thought i would feel a lot better by now. I guess the bigger the love, the harder it is to heal. Iv been in this hell more than long enough. Fast: i feel like iv been standing still. Still partly in shock watchin the world happen. Then suddenly im smacked in the face with 6 months of time i feelike iv missed. A lot of people tell me they dont understand how im doing this or they cant believe how good im handling it. Wanna know a secret? I cant believe it either honestly. But iv been doing it for 6 months standing on my own feet. No wonder im exhausted.